My Bad

It’s really sad I fell in love with a pathological liar. She can deceive her way through any situation and amazingly she not only lies, but she also makes sure that she has a justification for her worst actions. Yes I did do few nasty things that I never thought I could do. But, unfortunately the provocateur that brought the animal out of me got a chance to justify her actions making it an “easy life” for her and me a looser.
Whatever I did I accepted it and apologized for it and in fact I tried correcting it by accepting my truth to be a lie just because I couldn’t see her crying but her she never thought how much she was hurting me and how much she has changed me and how much damage she caused my health and career. There never has been a night I didn’t cry and there will never be a day I can be good old myself. God if you there and watching this happening all thru then I hate you.
At least what I did was simply to tell the truth to her parents but what she did is lie to me, my parents and thought it was her right. She never even felt sorry for involving my old folks. Her parents who knew everything also supported her. Why not? Ultimately it is the money that matters right? And you can always cover up saying am not emotionally satisfied with you? or insult me to do a mistake and then simply justify themselves as ohhhh we are lucky that guy seems to be a bad guy, god wanted this way and move on? God is a funny man he likes to be used for wrong reasons a lot these days and he doesn’t seem to mind at all. By using his name one can practically justify any bad deed.

They can use any rule from their book of crookedness and get away easily. Ultimately all this deceiving, hurting me and all other mess is just for a passage to America, dollars and combined together you get so called easy life. She slept with me more than a hundred times in hundred ways I wish to pay her and I can but will she give my life back? I beg of it............